Monday, July 11, 2011

Desire of my heart now delayed....

This is HARD.... so very hard.  I think I am doing OK and then another heavy chest-heart breaking day occurs.  I watch my friends and families lives move forward, and in all reality I am moving forward too, but without a huge part of me.  A friend told me that a friend of hers who's husband was killed said she felt like a cork in the ocean.  Wow.... some days are like that.  I do have the gospel to anchor me, a loving Heavenly Father too, but why does it still hurt so bad?  Part of grieving is mourning the person you were before.  I miss all of the companionship Alain and I shared together.  It may seem like I am looking behind and not ahead, but one does the best one can.  PATIENCE... and active waiting and enduring.  I can do this.  I am doing this....

4 comments:

jamie t. said...

day at a time mom... you are so strong!

Sheri Howard said...

I think the emotion of longing is the hardest, worst emotion of all....I think it is healthy to greive and miss Alain and your companionship....I still maintain, "this is your new party, and you can cry if you want to!"

Star 6 said...

Love Sheri's advice.....it is indeed your party and you can cry if you want. As long as we don't drown in our tears it is ok to shed a few...or alot on those really hard days. You are the bestest seester!!! And I will party with you anytime you want!!

Camille said...

Oh Donna...you are such an example to me!!!! I will keep you in my prayers!!!!