Saturday, February 4, 2012

One year without my sweetheart!





 I didn't see it coming....  
There was no warning whatsoever.... 
I was totally blindsided....


My husband and best friend Alain, left this earth
one year ago today. 



But oh... 
the blessings one year has brought into my life. 

I realized very quickly after he passed away,
that I had been married to the most wonderful man 
any woman could ever ask for. 
(I knew that before, but never with this intensity)
The years we spent together were some of the hardest...
yet the most growth occurred during that time also.

Alain was the most loving, giving, selfless person I have ever met.  
His ultimate goal in life was to...
be found worthy as a son of God, 
a faithful husband, 
a good father and a friend to all. 
  (I know he reached that goal...and all who knew him would agree)

I had the precious experience recently of reading his personal journals.
The one I read, started in 2005
and went until his last entry of January 21, 2011. 

I was amazed at his 
goodness, his humility, & his willingness
to keep trying after mistakes & challenges,
and his number one love.... 
serving any and all whenever he saw a need.  
He filled the pages with things he was so thankful for;
vehicles to take us places,
the furnace,
running water,
his health...
(which was always a challenge),
his children & grandchildren,
his ability to create and build things...
and the opportunity to serve others in need.

I read over and over again of the love he had for 
his parents, his family and me.
   Blessed me!  

I completed reading this journal, 
and was left with such an overwhelming appreciation and such gratitude 
to have been married to such a MAN!  
This experience was such a tender mercy in my healing and moving forward. 
I have felt a complete peace and calmness 
at my ability to continue missing 
every fiber of his being, 
and yet be able to continue through the coming years, 
honoring his memory,
loving our children, improving my life, 
serving others as he would have,
and being one year closer to being 
together again! 

During the past 12 months.
I feel such deep and sincere gratitude to every one of you,
who have touched my life for good...


Thank you 

I could NOT have done this without your love, prayers and support.
And as my sweetheart always told me...
"Tomorrow is a new day!"

(and I look forward to it's blessings!)

11 comments:

Krewson Family said...

You really are in our prayers especially on this day :) We love you so much. Thanks for being such a good other half to one of the best men I have ever known.

jamie t. said...

Beautifully written mom. I feel so blessed to have know him, be taught by him, and observe his example. We miss him so much but what peace comes with the gospel. Love you more than words can express.

Michelle L. said...

So, so beautiful Donna! Our family continues to pray for you, and you are in our thoughts, especially today. Hugs to you!

Michelle and Judson said...

Oh Marmie, I am filled with tears, but also such a calm reassurance that we will see him again. What a great way to put it, you are a year closer to being with him again. I love you with all my heart!

Thompson said...

I love you Mom!! I loved Alain with all my heart! There really are no words. I hope you can feel peace on this day! You are in our prayers!

Remi Budge said...

I think a good indication of how close someone comes to being like our Savior is what is caused to be awakened and emboldened inside of us when we remember them. In remembering Uncle Alain's death, I remember his life. In remembering his life I'm reminded to be a better person, be of service every moment of My life and to love all unconditionally. Uncle Alain's life is a wonderful reminder that it's not impossible to be like our Savior. I often feel like it's nearly impossible to act like the Savior, but he has proven that everyone of us has the potential to do it. An example that will continue to touch my heart for the rest of my life. My heart is full of gratitude for you, your family and Uncle Alain. My life has been changed for the better.

Remi Budge said...

I think a good indication of how close someone comes to being like our Savior is what is caused to be awakened and emboldened inside of us when we remember them. In remembering Uncle Alain's death, I remember his life. In remembering his life I'm reminded to be a better person, be of service every moment of My life and to love all unconditionally. Uncle Alain's life is a wonderful reminder that it's not impossible to be like our Savior. I often feel like it's nearly impossible to act like the Savior, but he has proven that everyone of us has the potential to do it. An example that will continue to touch my heart for the rest of my life. My heart is full of gratitude for you, your family and Uncle Alain. My life has been changed for the better.

Kate and Ry said...

Thinking of you guys today and always. I have found your blog to be very inspirational and encouraging. You are continually in my thoughts and prayers.

Jenna said...

Thinking of all of you...and I still think of him often...I think he's still around, trying to help as much as he can

Star 6 said...

He certainly did reach his goal. I would agree and the blessing of your happiness because of him was a true answer to my prayers for you. Extraodinary efforts in life and I am sure extraodinary efforts now.

Christa said...

I'm so glad you do this blog Donna. I think of you and Budge often.
Love you